It's not secondary...

Apparently I don't know my body or my cycles or anything at all.

Monday the 5th
After waiting for two additional weeks past when AF was suppose to happen I finally had my Provera & Clomid prescriptions filled. I woke up and POAS'd and it was negative. So I finally gave in and decided to take the Provera.

Wednesday the 7th
I take the first provera pill.

Sunday the 11th
I take the last provera pill. And then when dicussing with Kevin the time line I realize that I'm suppose to be ovulating on the 29th which is right when we'll be traveling to Kev's parents house. Not great timing and Kevin is a bit upset. So we decide that we're not going to use the clomid and just skip this round. It messes up our plans at Christmas (this is an English year) but what else can we do?

Tuesday the 13th
AF was suppose to show up today but hasn't. I'm not that concerned because I know it can take up to 10 days but it never has before. It's always shown up two days after the last provera.

Wednesday the 14th
GV is actually sleeping in this morning so when I woke up I had the sudden urge to test. I see the yogurt cup that I used for last week's test still next to the sink so I grab it and move to the toilet. Kevin walks in and gives me a look for testing again. I do the needful and then test it. I see the control line quickly but nothing on the test line so I dump the pee and start cleaning up. I'm reaching for the test to throw it away when I realize that I'm looking at two lines!

I call to Kevin and make him come back into the room to confirm that I am seeing two lines and not one. Kevin and I are both amazed and kind of in shock. We talk about this one in abstract. I call new-Dr.-G's office and set up an appointment with the NP on the 20th. They won't do a blood check till then. It's not till I hang up that I realize that it's right during GV's nap. That means Kevin wouldn't be able to go with me. So I call back and all they have is Friday at 10:30. I check Kevin's calendar and he's free. Kevin decides that we need to take one more test tomorrow just to be sure. You never know...

Thursday the 15th
Yesterday Kevin brought me home a new collection cup just in case the cup somehow is what caused the BFP. Test #2 is positive. The line is even darker this time.

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Now this baby is real. So going off the fact that I got a BFN last week and a BFP this week does that mean I'm only 4 weeks along? Or do I still go from my LMP start date which means that I'm 9 weeks? Also what should I expect with having taken Provera? I'm not sure what to think but I'm happy. I haven't had morning sickness. I've been hungrier but chalked that up to my new exercise workout routine once I got that first BFN. My boops were sore earlier this week but thought it was because I slept wrong (yes I still sleep on my stomach). No nausea or food aversions.

I have so many questions for my doctor and it's killing me that I have to wait till next Friday to get them answered. I need Dr. Grrrr back!

It might be secondary...

We ended up having to turn GV's crib into a toddler bed because he was getting worse and started to climb on top of the rail. That opened up a whole 'nother can of worms because then we had to start locking him in his room. It's so hard to go from a kid who went down for naps and bedtime so easily to having to lock him in his room. But he's getting better.
The past three days if I leave his door open for nap he'll go to sleep with minimal fuss (if any). Tonight at bedtime he protested at us closing the door but didn't start screaming. We heard him test the door knob a couple of times about 10 minutes later but he didn't start crying when he learned he was still locked in.
I don't know if he's sleeping on the bed though. One time when I went in to turn off his fan he was asleep on the floor next to his books. I'm okay if he wants to play/read a bit as long as he stays in his room.
GV has also started being able to turn regular door knobs. He's been able to open most of the doors in the house because they're the French style door knobs but the front door and the garage door are normal ones. I went to Ta.rget today to get the plastic caps for those and some more plug covers. For an old house we sure do have a lot of outlets!
I also got an air freshener for his room because his room stinks. If I walk into his room after the door's been closed for a while it really hits me. It's like it's a teenage boy's room not a baby boy. Kevin says he can't smell it but I can!
This weekend the first of GV's friends turns two! I can't believe it! That means it will be GV's second birthday before I know it. He won't be a baby anymore. Truthfully I'm looking forward to it because I love kids between the ages of 3-11.
GV is still not talking much. I've been working on the letters A-H, colors and shapes with him and if I ask him to pick it out he almost always gets it right but he won't say the words.

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After three cycles of actually working my body has quit on the fourth. My current cycle started on Jan 12th and it seems I never ovulated. I thought I had because of an ovulation test (on Feb 1st) but I read it wrong. Of course I didn't realize this till after AF never showed up. It was so exciting when that 2ww was 1 day over and then 2 and then 3. I tested on the 3rd day (feb 18th) and was so shocked when it was a BFN. So I waited a couple of days and AF didn't show up. I retested on the 21st and it was still a BFN. So I called New-Dr.-G and got a prescription for Provera. And it sat at the pharmacy because I kept convincing myself that I had just ovulated and so I couldn't ethically take it. But then I tested again this past Monday (CD54) and after yet another BFN I made myself call and fill the prescription. Today is day 2 of 5. The good news is that I'll have Clomid this time around.