Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Party Poopers

That's me and Kevin tonight. Ever since we moved to RVA, Kevin and I usually go down to an area called Carytown with our friends and ring in the New Year with a bottle. Tonight however partly due to the new cover charge, the sub-freezing temperatures and the high wind advisory, not to mention my illness, we're catching up on our DVR and splitting screen time between Carson and Dick & Ryan. But for everyone else, I hope you're having the perfect New Year's Eve no matter how you are celebrating it. All the best for 2009!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

A Pleasant Surprise

Tonight when Kevin got home from doing the grocery shopping, he asked me why there were flowers on our porch. I went out there to look and I saw this big arrangement of beautiful white flowers sitting next to our door. I brought them inside and opened up the card. It read "Merry Christmas Love From J, L & S." Kevin's uncle, aunt, and cousin. I was kind of distraught to receive this as we had pretty much ignored his aunt and uncle this Christmas season. There's a lot of family drama behind this but long story short, this spring Auntie L decided that she (and her family) wanted nothing more to do with her sister (Mum). Auntie L lives in the same small village. Everyone knows everyone and it just killed Mum that people outside the family would know about the problems between Mum and Auntie L. Anyways a little while later, cousin M and his wife S told Mum that they never wanted to cut off all contact and cousin S said the same. This was back in May/June and true to her word Auntie L hasn't spoken or even seen Mum since then. Needless to say, Kevin is very upset with Auntie L and so this Christmas Kevin specifically told me not to send them a card. While we were in England, he didn't want to go visit with them. When we got the mail yesterday, I found a Christmas card from them. So I know that I'm going to have to write thank you note for the flowers but I'm not really sure what to say. I know I should have sent them a card especially since SIL said that she had received a card from them. Anyways, as Kevin said when we were reading the card, "Well this is a interesting development." Pfft.

Monday, December 29, 2008

The Case of the Missing Pills

Today is CD6 for me. I should have started Clomid last night, but it seems I've misplaced my Clomid. Last night poor Kevin had to unpack all the bags himself looking for my Rx and all he found was my empty Provera bottle. So I'm not sure where it went — I'm dreading that Mum might find it — but it meant that I wasn't able to start Clomid on time. This morning I had to call Dr. T's office and explain what happened. They gave me another Rx and now I'm suppose to be taking the pills from CD6-CD10 and having a u/s & hcg trigger on CD17.
On another note, the chills I had yesterday have morphed into a sore throat and pressure headache today. I think I'm coming down with something.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Right now I am absolutely shattered. We got to wake up at 5 am (12 am ET) for our flight at 8:20. We learned from our flight over that we should book our seats before hand so yesterday we checked the website and figured out that we could check in online for international flights. Kevin didn't think this was possible. But you can! And then you get to go in the Fast Bag Drop lane and so you don't have to be at the airport 2 hours ahead of time. After squeezing two huge cases, 2 boxes, 1 small case, a book bag and 4 adults into Dad's compact car we finally made it to the airport around 7:30 am. The flight down to Terminal 5 wasn't that bad, however on the flight across things went downhill for me. I started cramping, my ears started acting up so the pressure changes were actually painful. Plus I got the sudden chills even though I was wrapped in my sweater, my jacket, Kevin's jacket and two airline blankets, I was freezing for the whole 8 hour flight. I fell asleep in the car and when I woke up 2 hours later cause we should have been home, I discovered that we hadn't even made it to Fredericksburg. Traffic was so bad that it actually took us 4 hours to make it home from the airport. As soon as we got home I took a nice long hot shower and now I'm ready for bed.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

And finally the last day...

Today was our last full day in England.  Today was good because we got to try out our new suitcase, Mum and I crushed Kevin and Dad at Pictionary, Kevin and I got to see the Jo-Nathans at the pub and when we got home Peep Show was on the telly. So two more SIL & Mum stories because I just can't help myself. So Saturday afternoon when Kevin and I were just getting started packing, Mum came up and asked if we wanted to play a board game. Kevin started to say no, because we were packing but I cut him off and said "Sure!"  We head downstairs and into the dining room which just happens to be the ONLY room that you'd be able to play a board game in and who's in there all spread out with her 1000-piece puzzle but SIL. Mum sees her and asks her what board game would she like to play and SIL says none, she's just started working on her puzzle. So Mum says "But I just asked you if wanted to play a board game and you said yes." "Well now I'm doing my puzzle," says SIL. Mum replies "Okay we'll just work on your puzzle together then." SIL harrumphs at this and then gets up and walks out of the room and goes upstairs to her room. Leaving all her stuff behind and her puzzle spread out all over the table as well. Mum and I had to clean it up and then Mum went upstairs to get Pictionary. I kick A$$ at this game! Seriously, you want to be on my team if we play this during a game night! Oh and never go against me & Wiki (as a team) in any game cause we'll mow over you.  We've even been banned from being on the same team at certain friend's houses *cough*Trolley*cough* because of how good we are.
Second story involves Mum and SIL as well but this time SIL isn't the villain. So I go into the kitchen, seeing that Mum is in there alone.  She's usually never alone in the kitchen because SIL is always with her. Anyways, I ask Mum if there's anything I can do. She says no. So then I ask again if I can help and she says something about checking to see if the table has been set (it has). Then I ask her if she's sure there's nothing I can do and she says that she's got everything covered. So I finally give up and go into the living room. Not 5 minutes later Mum walks in and bends over SIL and asks her cut up the vegetables (carrots, parsnips and cauliflower). Seriously?!? I just asked you!  Do you really think I'm incapable of handling a sharp instrument? Mum does this all the time. The most responsiblity I ever get is setting the table and she has Kevin and SIL cutting and chopping and stirring. I mean I don't really like to cook but I like to help.  And meaningful help, not just something any ol' idiot could do.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Boxing Day

So EVERY time Kevin and I visit, Kevin's family loves going on big walks. Big walks with lots of hills, muddy fields and done at a brisk pace.  No not brisk, maybe more like power-walking pace.  Oh, and these walks usually last a couple of hours, with some even being almost a whole day thing. I am not a walker, I am not a fast walker, I don't like walking up hills just for the heck of it.  I've mentioned the pain that comes everytime I walk somewhere in England (even when I walk slow).  Kevin's family knows about this.  They have to know that I'm in physical pain when we go on these walks at their million-miles-a-minute walks. Pain that can bring on tears with every step. Yet every time the five of us set out for a walk this is what happens: Mum and SIL walk at their normal speed steadily increasing the space between us with each step. Kevin stays behind with me and walks at my pace, missing the time to spend and chat with his family. Dad varies in location from waiting for me to catch up, leading the walk (cause he's got the guide book) or falling behind because this portion of the walk "creases" him (his words). So if you can't tell, I don't really like these family walks. Before we went to bed on Christmas day, Mum announces that she wants to go for a walk tomorrow.  Great! So as Kevin and I were settling down for bed I told him that I wasn't going to go. I listed my reasons very clearly and said I would rather go into the village and do a bit of shopping, spending some time alone and giving Kevin time with his family without his having to worry about me. Very clear, very unemotional (I thought) and figured that was that.  Well, while I was in the shower getting ready for the day, Kevin announces to Mum that he doesn't want to go on a very long walk, nor does he want to go on any muddy walks (he didn't bring his hiking boots) and that he wants to go on a walk that isn't so strenous that they end up leaving me behind. This is not what I said! Of course Mum had already decided which walk we would go on and so this absolutely flustered her(Her and Kevin don't deal well with sudden changes to laid out plans). She goes on and on about how he didn't say anything they night before about any of his "requirements." I am in the dining room at this point, eating breakfast when they (Mum and Kevin) start arguing about where they're going.  Mum disappears for a bit and then comes back with Dad and rehashes the same argument with Kevin which upsets Kevin to the point that he storms out of the room.  Then Mum starts in on Dad about how he didn't back her up and that instead of telling her to just drop it - He did several times try to get her past the issue of Kevin's sudden requirements to actually pick a new walk - he should have gotten angry with Kevin because Kevin was being difficult and shouting at her. Well then Dad gets annoyed at Mum and he walks out of the room.  Then it's just me and Mum sitting there and she starts talking to me, wanting me to say that Kevin was wrong and that he shouldn't have sprung these sudden requirements. What am I suppose to do? Anyways we ended up going on a very boring walk along a field next to a motorway. Mum was very deliberate in her attempts to stay at the back of the group and go slow, so I'm pretty sure Kevin said something about them walking too fast. Ugh! The rest of the day went pretty smoothly, including some fun after dinner making balloon animals.

Since Christmas

I know that I have been woefully bad at posting on this blog and on leaving comments on other people's blogs and for this I'm really sorry. I wish I could say that it was due to my being extremely busy but sadly this isn't the case. Usually when I'm unable to get on the internet to post, I'll still write a bit and then just post it later or the next day. That was largly what I was doing over the Christmas week so that's why there would be nothing and then 2 or 3 posts in one day. But since Christmas I've just been lazy, so these next few posts are going to be updated as soon as I've written each post - yes I'm going to try to get them all up today.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Happy Crimbo!

Hope you and your families are having a fantastic Christmas with lots of pressies and plenty of good cheer! Every time I visit I tend to pick up a new piece of slang and this year it's "Happy Crimbo!" Kevin's family is located near Liverpool (yes Kev's been accused of sounding like one of the Beatles) and did you know that Liverpudlians have their own accent and dialect? Five points if you can guess the name of it.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Blah

So today I've been in a bit of a foul mood. On most normal days I'm a happy-go-lucky kind of gal. I'm usually even-tempered and pretty upbeat. But there's just something about about being here that always gets me down. Maybe it's that the sun doesn't come up till 8 am or sets at 4:30 pm. It could be the poor pitiful excuse for a shower head in my IL's only bathroom. Or the fact that when you're taking said shower and someone somewhere in the house turns on the water, you're suddenly having an ice cold shower. Could it be the tension in this family? The tension between SIL and Kevin? Or the tension between Mum and her sister? Or the fact that we're stuck in the house and pretty much at the mercy of rides being given? And that it's always such a big hassle to get a ride, trying to schedule it between making dinner, going to get gas or run their own errands. Because of the way english insurance works neither Kevin nor I can drive anywhere in his parents cars. And there's been doozies on this trip as well. The lost/delayed luggage. The special outfits I bought to wear that were sitting in my suitcase at the depot. The damaged bags when they finally arrived. Mum not being as excited about her gift as I was. Added to this trip, could it be the recent failure of cycle 3 or the fact that clomid & the hcg trigger shot didn't work at all? As you see a bit of a mopey camper this week. I swear next week I'll be much better.

Update: So turns out today is the the first day of Cycle 4. Yes I'm sure you're probably writing off my funky mood to this, but I don't usually PMS. Ever. It's just this place.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

97.45°

So I ended up taking an unexpected vacation from bbtemping this trip. I was sitting in Terminal 5 and looking at Kevin and I suddenly realized that for the first time in since I started temping about 70 days ago, I was actually going to miss a day. First I didn't sleep a wink on the flight over and then because I didn't have my thermometer with me (it was in our checked bags). But I figured that one day wouldn't be so bad. Well then with the bags being lost I ended up missing Saturday and Sunday mornings. Yesterday morning I just couldn't be bothered taking it (I did wake up when I was suppose to). So this morning is the first time I've taken it since Thursday morning. I finished the provera Sunday evening and so this morning I wasn't sure what to expect. 97.45° is a bit higher than normal but low enough that FF took away my supposed ovulation on CD28. Now we're waiting for real for Cycle 4 to begin.

Okay, off to the pub for some drinks with the lads! :)

Monday, December 22, 2008

Can it be repaired?

Kevin called the airline and they asked him if the bag could be repaired! He just laughed, so they gave him a number to call for a baggage service. When he did, they asked him to describe the bag including the maker and that they're coming by tomorrow at 3pm to replace it. Ooooh.

Nothing much going on tonight, we might go out with Mr. Deladubree if he makes into town, but Kevin doesn't think that's going to happen. He and the Mrs. are going to India for the holidays. Actually she's already there. I'd be scared to go right now, but maybe it's safer now because everyone will be on alert.

SIL has been better, kind of. She started a 1000 piece puzzle earlier today and Kevin asked if she need any help and she declined. So Kevin made me go on a walk. And yes, my legs started killing me about half way through the walk.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Password Found, Connects All-Around

So I had Kevin nudge FIL a little bit and it worked. He found the password. We tried it out and now both my computer and iPhone are online again. So good times. Of course the first thing that Kevin wanted to look up was my facebook account to see if SIL's post/status were still there. See, yesterday while he and Mum were out picking up SIL from the train station, I went onto the internet. I checked my facebook account and saw that SIL had posted a photo from the Cowboys game onto her account on Thursday(?). And her comment on it was "Look at my tragic brother." Then on Friday she changed her status to "SIL thinks her brother is a tool." At first I wasn't going to tell Kevin but then when they got home, SIL ran up the stairs to her room and slammed the door shut. I went to find Kev and he said that at the station when she arrived, she walked right past him without saying a word to him and didn't even hug Mum hello. So I showed him what I had found. I could tell he was upset about it. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.

After a bit of awkardness while Mum was opening her gifts (still with no words aimed at Kev or I from her), we went out to the stores to find outfits for last night's concert. When we got home from the shopping, SIL was a bit more friendly actually asking me about the baggage and bringing up our tea to Kevin's room. Since then she's been okay. Not great, but okay.

So anyways, when we checked this morning, the post/status weren't there. She would have had to unpost and delete them, so maybe she felt bad about it.

In other news, our bags have finally arrived! The brown bag was fine, however the grey bag was smashed to pieces. Seriously! It's a hard-shell case and pieces have been broken off of it like it's a piece of brittle. It's horrible! And all the presents were in that bag. I checked the contents of both bags and it seems that everything is still there.

Tonight we're going to dinner out to celebrate Mum's b-day. She's decided not to wear any of the jewelry given to her as presents because they don't go with her outfit. Whatever. I always try to wear birthday items right away (even if they clash), so that people know I appreciate them. Pfft.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

There's just something about walking in England...

that does my legs in! Kev and I usually go on walks back home. But for some reason whenever we're in the UK and do a walk, I end up with really sore legs! And not my calves or thighs which I would know how to stretch out, but on the sides, next to my calves. It's the darndest place to be sore at! And it hurts like a b!tch! Even now, I just walked to the post box to mail some Christmas cards and my legs are killing me! And it's only a 2 minute walk each way!

So I just now mailed my Christmas cards. I was really bad this year, not sure why, but at least I mailed them before Christmas! The UK ones should arrive before Christmas, but the ones in the US will probably arrive early next week. Oops! I'm hoping that those people will be so excited about getting a card from overseas that they'll forget that it's arrived late. :D

So the in-laws have wireless internet access, however FIL put the password in such a safe place that he can't find it now. Now I'm not sure how I'm going to do IComWeLeav. I guess I should have waited till next month to do that. Didn't think that one through did I? But I'm hoping that he'll find the password soon.

Oh and the bags haven't arrived yet! They're coming to MAN on a 2:40 flight this afternoon, so who knows when we'll get our bags. Good news is that I get to go shopping for new clothes! Bad news is that I'm wearing the same clothes for the third day! Aren't you glad you can't smell me?

Friday, December 19, 2008

Where are the dolphins & whales?

So we're parked in a huge sitting area in British Airway's Heathrow Terminal 5 and I have to say, there are no dolphins, rays, whales or seals. I've looked everywhere! What there are a lot of are stores! Stores galore!

So the flight over was one annoyance after another. We arrived two hours before our flight. However the people who were on the 9:00 flight decided to show up 5 hours early and the people who were on the midnight flight showed up 8 hours early and so the line was HUGE! It took us 1 hour and 15 minutes to get through. And then we didn't even get seats together. So I asked the guy next to me if he would like to switch with Kevin (since he was sat farther up in the plane) and the guy said only if he was on the aisle. Kevin wasn't, so I settled in next to two strangers for a 6 hour flight. Nice! Mr. Aisle-Seat-Only entertained me by playing air guitar while listening to is iPod, not being able to open his tray or his video screen (we were sat in the front of section, so no seats in front of us), thinking that his show was so funny he had to rock in his seat and gesticulate grandly at it. Then when we landed (early), they weren't ready for us so they had us park away from the terminal and sent buses for us. Except they forgot to send the stairs truck for us to actually get off of the plane.

So yeah, annoying flight! I get to sit next to Kevin on the next flight and it's only an hour long. Should be better. Should.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Resolution Time!

I love New Year's resolutions. I know, it may sound weird, but I do. As soon as December starts, not only am I looking forward to my birthday, but also to putting together my New Year's Resolution List. I try to set some goals for myself that are attainable but not necessarily easy. I also have some ground rules.

Rule #1 is that I can't resolve to do anything that is going to cause an extra expense. For instance, I won't resolve to workout at a gym 3 times a week because then I'd have to buy a gym membership.
Rule #2 is that I can't resolve to lose weight. I think losing weight is a horrible NYR. So that's never on my list (even though I could afford to lose a pound or two - or 50).
And my last rule is that I can't resolve to do anything that will inconvience someone else without first talking to them about it. Usually this person is Kevin. For instance two years ago I resolved to stop eating fast food. No more McDonald's, Arby's or Burger King. I defined fast food as food establishments with a drive-thru window though, so I still go to Subway all the time. Because that resolution meant that Kevin would be affected we talked about it beforehand. He agreed and 2 years later we're still fast-food free. It was hard at first, but now I don't even get the urge anymore. Except when I see commercials claiming the McRib is back (AGAIN!). I love the McRib!
So with all those rules, here's my preliminary list of NYR for 2009:
  1. Workout on the elliptical machine at least once every three days. We bought one last year and I was really good about getting on every other day for about a month. Now it just sits in Les' room folded up.
  2. Stop snacking during the day. I use to never snack between meals. And then I moved in with Kevin and that boy eats ALL DAY LONG! So since I was having to buy him snacks to get through the day, I bought stuff I liked as well. At my desk now I have trail mix, saltines, chewy granola bars, fruit cups, yogurt (in the work fridge), clementines, apples, a banana, gum and salad dressing (for the mythological salads I have for lunch). So I'm cutting back. I'm keeping the gum, clementines and apples but everything else is going.
  3. Only going out for lunch once a week. Yep, gotta keep my El Paso Thursdays. But I'm brown bagging it the other four days a week. Dave's agility class fees have to come from somewhere.
  4. Volunteer at BARK once a month. I can give up one Saturday morning a month to walk/clean up after dogs that don't have a home.
  5. Get to church every Sunday. And confession at least 4-5 times. I got really good about this earlier this year then in October we stopped going.
  6. Vacuum at least twice a month, sweep twice a week. I'm really bad about this and I've got two very hairy dogs. I won't tell you how bad, but it's bad.
  7. TBD
So that's all I've thought of so far. I'm sure I'll think of more soon.

Monday, December 15, 2008

A familiar face

This morning at 10:30 my blogging world was turned upside down. I received a comment from a new reader named Beth. Now for most of us having a new reader is a good thing. However I freaked out a bit because I know Beth IRL. She is a soccer mom of a girl I coached 8 years ago.

One of the best things about the built-in blog roll is that not only can you list the blogs you are reading, but you can choose to list their latest post title. This is a great way for me to quickly check on everyone's blog as well provide quick links to their blog. I probably use my own blog roll way more than anyone else who regularly visits my blog does. Three of the blogs listed are written by people I knew IRL before I found their blog. When first setting up the blog roll I chose to list their blog even though I knew there was a small possibility that they could find me. But I tried to minimize that risk by making sure I never clicked on that link. I always directly typed in their website address or I access it through a bookmark. I work with website statistics and website optimization all day long so I thought I had it covered. But I never considered that someone might click to their blog through my blogroll. I'm pretty sure that's how Beth found me.

So her comment touched home for me for several reasons.

"I had no idea what you were going through..."
This is true, almost no one knows what Kevin and I are going through. My family knows that I have PCOS and that I'm taking medicine to try to "regulate" my cycles. I think they kind of know that we're trying to fix it because we want kids, but they've all been really good at not asking too many questions. I've forbidden Kevin from telling his family because I feel like it's just one more thing that they could mark in the con column of having me for a daughter-in-law. Most likely if they never get a biological grandchild from Kevin it will be my fault. I just can't stand for them to know. Yet. I know one day I'll have to tell them, I just can't yet. I've told my cousin Mayo, an old friend from grade school and Chicken to varying degrees about what's going on in that front, but I don't keep them up to date with the latest. Again, they don't ask and I don't tell.
"or that you even wanted kids."
This assumption is true for most people who know me. Why? Well because for most of my adult life, I didn't want to have kids. When asked about kids my answers were always "Heck no!" or "Only if I can give them back!" It seems a weird stance for someone who works with kids as much as I do, but then again, I don't think anyone who knows me would call me maternal. People always tell you that once you have kids, it will kick in, but really until a couple of years ago, I'd never really seriously considered actually having kids. Even now when I think about adopting, I keep looking at toddlers (1-3 years old) instead of newborns. I'm scared of not being able to have kids, but I'm also scared to have them.
"You'll be a great mom. I will keep you & Kevin in my prayers."
Soccer parents at best are a group of people who are cheerleaders not only for their daughters, but the team and the coaches as well. They can be the ultimate support system whenever needed. Beth is definitely one of the best examples of this. Just read her blog to see how much she and her husband have changed their lives to share their daughters' passion. All three of her kids are great kids and she is definitely an example of how to do it right.

"Can I link to you on my Blogroll or are you trying to keep this on the DL?"
I've been struggling with this question all day long. I'm not really sure who reads Beth's blog other than Joanne (another former soccer mom), Beth's husband and Beth's kids. So do I want to open this up to them? As a coach, I've taken my responsibilities as a role model seriously. I changed the way I talked (cursing less) and thought of the 10-18 girls under my charge when making decisions. I've always tried to be someone they could look up to and trust and respect. Is this suppose to be one more way that I'm suppose to help? For the past 8 years that I coached, there are around 4-6 girls from each team that I coached that I still keep in touch with. So around 25-30 girls all in high school or college now. There's every likelyhood that one of those girls is going to have a problem with PCOS or with some type of infertility. Even though I feel a strong calling to adopt, maybe I was suppose to go through this for them. On the other hand, do I want to go public with this information yet? I'm still struggling with the label of infertility and all that goes with it. Am I ready for this? But then again, why did I list their blogs at all unless I really did want to be found out. I always knew it was a possibility.

So you might be asking me if I am upset that my blog was found out. Truthfully, no. And I mean that. Having one more person in my corner and offering positive thoughts and prayers will help. I might have to make some changes. Like on my FF chart, I removed the BD'ing section, cause it's weird for me to have that kind of information available to people who actually know me and Kevin. But for the most part, I'm okay with knowing that Beth reads my blog. Even more than okay.

As for the linking, I don't think I'm ready for that. Maybe after February, when I've seen the new RE, Kevin and I have made a choice about adoption or we have a new plan for battling this darn infertility I'll be more open to it. But for now I'd like to keep this to myself for a little while longer.

So welcome Beth. Welcome to my world :).

P.S. Man! Can I over analyze a situation or what? Maybe I am turning more into Wiki than I thought!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Enhancements

So I've been making a few enhancements to the blog this past week. First, I added the followers widget. Just having people follow me makes me feel so liked :). Next I tried to do a condensed version of Kevin's and my story. I really like reading these things on others blog, but for some reason, waited till now to do it myself. It came out a little long so I made it a post and then tried to do an even more condensed version. Also, I added a link for those people who are wanting to read just my TTC/Adoption posts. And last, I added a ticker that countsdown till we see the new RE! 2 months 3 days!

On the TTC front, I started Provera on Friday. My bbt shot way up this weekend. And because of that, FF thinks I ovulated last Thursday. I'm pretty sure the rise in bbt is due to Provera and not because I actually ovulated, but I can't find any charts that support my hypothesis. I guess I'll find out after I stop taking Provera.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Let's talk about Dave, baby!

So cool thing that happened this week (which I didn't blog about because the whole RE thing took all my blog posts) was that the trainer at Les' agility class thinks that Les is 1 class away from being promoted to the next level.  I'm excited because this means that Dave can start back up again.

I noticed that I haven't mentioned much about Dave in this blog.  It's not because she's the ugly stepchild.  Just because she's been pretty boring lately. Well except for the whole macadamia nut episode.  Anyways, for the first 5 years of Dave's life, she participated regularly in agility.  She wasn't that good (wandering nose and not food-driven), but enough that we could have fun. When we moved to Ohio we did flyball for a little while but that really never took off.  Finally early this summer since I was taking a break from soccer, I wanted to pick up agility with both dogs.  Les had never done it before so to make things easier on myself, I planned to start Les only and when she reached the level I thought Dave was at I would then get Dave going again.  That way I would only be going to classes once a week instead of 2-3 times a week.  Well, Les is finally at that point, so in the new year, Dave starts her classes. 

A couple of months ago I had to do a project in PremierePro for a training class I was taking and of course I did it of the dog! So for your enjoyment, presenting Dave. Oh, and as the Wizard of Oz says "Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain."

video

Friday, December 12, 2008

Progress

The u/s didn't last that long. Afterwards, Dr. T told me that it doesn't look I ovulated. No sh!t Sherlock! Also, he said that since my lining isn't that thick he doesn't think AF is going to visit on her own. After talking a little bit about injectibles (yikes!) we decided that I'm going to stay on Clomid, but at 150mg for round 4. Also HCG trigger shot on CD16 again. He said that because of my lining thickness and that there weren't any follicles/cysts in the ovaries, I could start the next round of Clomid now. However Kev and I are going to back to his for the holidays so that would mean I would be 3000 miles away on CD16. So Dr. T wants me to go ahead and do Provera and then Clomid. So based on this schedule the next time I POAS should be at the end of January.

When I got home, I had a packet from Dr. G's office. In it was:
1. A letter from Ms. J (who's the office manager).
2. A registration form.
3. Directions to the office
4. Male Patient History Form (3 pages!)
5. Female Patient History Form (again 3 pages!)
6. A brochure about Dr. G/Center where he mentions his & his wife's own struggle with infertility.
I'm sooooo excited about working with this doctor. I'm going to take some of your suggestions and call the office to see if I can be put on a cancelled appt list.

Kev and I have come up with a plan for what's next. I'll post more about it later.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Guess where I'm at?!?

I'm sitting in the waiting room of Dr. T's office. Long winded story of how I got here but it starts with a phone call (eventually)...

So I didn't get any call from Dr. T or his nurse yesterday. After thinking about what I should do, talking to Kev, and processing all your comments (thanks everyone!) I decided to go ahead and call Dr. P and ask them to take care of me till I could see Dr. G. So this morning I called Dr. P's nurse, left a message and asked them to call me back. Then I got down to the business of working.

Finally around 11 am I couldn't stand it anymore and called Dr. T's office again. I just had to know why they were treating me like this. The front desk lady actually answered and I explained my situation to her. She then put me on hold and a couple of minutes later Dr. T came on the phone. I told him everything that had happened (IF wise, I didn't feel like getting into the whole calls-not-being-returned at that point) and he asked me a some questions. After shuffling some papers for a few minutes he finally decided that I should come in so that he could do an u/s and see what was going on.

As soon as I hung up with Dr. T, I had a message from Nurse B at Dr. P's office. When I called back I learned that Dr. P isn't in today but I explained what was going on and Nurse B said she's going to talk to her tomorrow and then give me a call back. After today's appt with Dr. T, I'll figure out what to do about Dr. P.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Going off the reservation

Yesterday at 4:45 pm I still hadn't gotten a call from my RE or Nurse K.  So I looked up the other REs in my plan, found one at random and gave them a call.  Ms. J (don't know if she's the nurse yet or not) answered and was wonderful! Caring and funny all over the phone.  At first I tried to play off my call as my OB/GYN wanted me to start seeing an RE but because of all the questions she asked, I ended up telling her about my current RE/situation. So good news is that I have a new RE, Dr. G, and bad news is that Dr. G doesn't have a new patient appt open till February 2009! Ack! Ms. J told me that it would take about 2 hours and that Kevin should come. This is sooooo completely different to how my first appt with Dr. T was.  That appt lasted about 30 minutes with the U/S that he did!  


So my problem is what to do till February.  I'm on CD34 with no PMS symptoms.  Not that I've usually ever had PMS symptoms before in the past.  I've got an Rx of Provera and Clomid (100mg) at the pharmacy, I'm considering getting them both filled so that I can start the next round.  If I start Provera tomorrow, based on past uses/cycles, I could be able to fit 1.5 more cycles in before my appt and plus I would only have to wait a couple of weeks to start new treatment with Dr. G.  My only concern is that I only have 100mg of Clomid and I would want to go up to 150mg.  So maybe if I call my OB/GYN I can get them to write me an Rx.  Hmmm.

I know that I'm not a doctor and that doing this stuff without a doctor guiding you can be dangerous, but the only reason why I'm considering this is because my OB/GYN did originally tell me that she wanted me to do 6 cycles of Clomid (possibly going up to 150mg) and then referred me to an RE after two failed cycles (at 50mg and 100mg).

I'm also considering calling my OB/GYN and telling them that I couldn't get an appt with my RE till February (which is kinda true) and so could they help me till then.

I don't know.  I'm just blogging through my options here.

Also, after lunch today I called and left a message for Nurse K and said that I was very disappointed with their lack of response to me and my case.  I said that it had been over 48 hours since my first call and 24 hours since they said they were going to call me back and that I was still in the dark about what to do next.  I said that if they were unwilling or unable to help me that they needed to tell me so that I could find someone who was.  Let's see if they call back.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Looking at my options

This morning at about 8:45 am I called Nurse K again. I also looked at my health insurance's website to see if there are any other REs in my area that are in my plan. There are 4 others. One is Dr. T's partner and although I've heard good things about him, he's the one who gave me the HCG shot even though he told me he didn't like what he saw in the u/s. So really there are only three. At this point I've decided that if I don't get a call back today I'm going to go with another RE. I've never had that good gut instinct about this guy and something about him just doesn't mesh. I've been reading more and more about women who just click with their REs. They really feel like their RE is in their corner and fighting for them. I kinda want that.


Update: At 10:45 am I finally got a call from Nurse K. She called to say that she'd put my file on Dr. T's desk and that as soon as he decided what I should do next, he or she would call me back. Hello! I called yesterday and you just put my file on his desk? Seriously? So now I'm waiting for another call. I'm still keeping my deadline of hearing back from them by EOD. This call here doesn't count.

Monday, December 8, 2008

That's a Negative

As suspected my HPT came out a BFN this morning.  I wasn't really expecting a positive as my temperatures have remained pretty much constant this whole time.  And I'm really good about waking up at 6 am to take them. But anyways.  So I called my RE's nurse (Nurse K) and left a message around 10:45 am.  She claims in her message that she'll call you back at lunch or at the end of the day.  By 4:30 pm I still hadn't gotten a call back so I called again.  I was told Nurse K was the only nurse in that day and so she was swamped.  She usually would have messages answered by then, but that since today was a Monday and she was split between the two RE's, it might be a while.  It is now 7 pm and nothing.  Not that I was expecting much after 5 pm though. I'll try again tomorrow.


P.S. I'm getting so good at Rock Band - hitting 97-98% on the songs. Yes!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Burnin' Down Da House

Hello! So I had a fantastic birthday today. Kevin and I got to sleep in today till 9:30 am. Les and Dave kept bugging Kevin to get up but left me alone. Then we had a traditional English breakfast - I had to make the eggs though cause Kevin claims not to be able to do fried eggs. After breakfast Kevin produced all the cards/gift that had been mailed to me that he took into protective custody. I guess I should be thankful for that otherwise I would open them all during the week instead of waiting till my actual birthday. Yes, I know I'm bad. Very, very bad. Kevin got me Rock Band. I'd been wanting this game because I LOVE the drums. We then rocked out all day - even skipping Church (don't tell MyDad!) and grocery shopping - took a break to watch the football games, and then rocked out some more.

We then got all dressed up, took some pictures of us and went to dinner at The Cheesecake Factory. I decided to splurge a little and went ahead and had a drink. I'm pretty sure I'm not KU so I had a Flying Gorilla (Fresh Banana, Chocolate, Ice Cream, Créme de Cacao and DeKuyper Banana Liqueur). Best. Drink. Ever. It's like a Chocolate Elvis from Planet Smoothie, but better! And the best part? The waitress carded me! Ten years later and I'm still being carded.

When it came time to order dessert (cheesecake of course), I was torn between ordering the peanut butter one and the cookie dough one. Then on the next page, I saw that they offered Chocolate Peanut Butter Cookie Dough Cheesecake. Awesomeness!! While we were waiting to order, Kevin asked me if I had blown out the candles I had lit for our pictures.

Me: "Um, no, I thought you did."
Kev: "No, you did, right?"
Me: "Noooooo."
Kev: "Are you serious?"
Me: "Maybe we should get these cheesecakes to go."

So we ordered the cheesecakes, finally got our check from "Susie SlowService", paid and rushed home. No firetrucks in our street. Phew! We walked in and the house was fine, candles still burning nicely and the dogs all excited about our doggy bags. So much excitement! But all's good now. Might play a few more songs of Rock Band and then go to bed.

Tomorrow morning I POAS and then call the doctor and tell them "I got a BFN. Could be because I didn't ovulate like I told you last week!" Arg.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Infertility Support Group

Tomorrow I'm attending an Infertility Support Group meeting. Back in September, I was dealing with the beginnings of infertility.  But still, I didn't consider myself to have a real problem.  I thought "It's just temporary, with diet, exercise and drugs, my body will work.  We'll get pregnant fast, once I take the drugs." I didn't want to label myself as infertile.
At Church, we have a weekly bulletin.  In it, I saw a announcement that there was a Infertility Support Group at another church at the end of the month.  I felt a strong calling to attend that meeting.  I wanted to talk to someone face to face about what was going on.  I wanted to talk to someone face to face who was going through the same thing I was.  But still, I struggled with admitting that I was infertile.  So when something else came up that allowed me to skip that meeting, I did.  I was weak and rather than admit that I really truly was in fact facing a fertility problem I allowed myself to skip that meeting.
On Sunday, back in church, I regretted it.  I knew I should have gone and now it was too late.  So I checked the bulletin and nothing. No mention of it. So I waited.  October passed by and nothing.  And then November started coming to a close and still nothing.  So last week I decided to google for it. I found the blog of the woman who helped start it. On her blog, she had a post about the group and when the next meeting was. It was within two weeks. I was so excited that I immediately sent her an email.  I knew that this time I HAD to go.  I would force myself to get up early on Saturday and attend. I don't need labels to have permission to go, I just need to have the need for support.  And I do.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

CD27

Today is CD27. On this day last cycle I was ovulating. I was really hoping that on CD27 of this cycle I would be in my two week wait. Is that totally weird? That I was wanting to be in my 2WW? Anyways, yesterday I called my RE and spoke to the nurse. I explained that I was 10 DP my HCG trigger shot and no O yet. She wasn't very helpful. She told me to wait till Saturday, POAS and then call them with the results. Umm, did you hear me? I haven't ovulated yet! But whatever. I'm considering waiting till Monday. Cause really, I can't actually do anything about the results on a Saturday. Sunday is my b-day so I've decided I DON'T want to know that I failed to ovulate/get KU on that day. Also based on the past two cycles, AF should arrive on Sunday (great!) and I can save the pg test for when it actually might count.

Monday, December 1, 2008

The Perfect Gift

So Mum's — Kevin's mom — 60th birthday is Dec. 20th. It ended up working out that we'll be in town for this one so Yay!  Yesterday Kevin, MyMom and I went to Tiffany & Co to see what we could see, and we found this necklace for Mum.

What's awesome though, is that Kevin picked it out!  Usually he's horrible about picking out gifts, especially jewelry, mainly cause he's afraid to get it wrong. But yesterday at the store, I gave him 3 or 4 options and he actually picked one himself.

P.S. I'm having a GREAT hair day today...for once.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

It feels like a school day...

And that's what so nice about a 4 day weekend!! Kevin and I are just finishing off the packing now, getting ready to head back to VA. But before I left I wanted to post MyMom's Cranberry Salsa recipe.


Cranberry Salsa with Lime - Makes about 3 cups (which is a lot!)
1 package (12 oz) fresh cranberries, picked over and stemmed
2 large ribs celery, finely diced
1 small white onion, finely diced
1 jalapeño, seeded and minced
¼ cup chopped fresh cilantro
½ teaspoon salt
¾ cup sugar
3 tablespoons fresh lime juice
In a food processor, process the cranberries until coarsely and evenly ground then pour into a medium sized bowl. Mix in all the remaining ingredients and stir well to mix. Refrigerate until ready to serve, at least several hours, best if done day before serving.

It's yummy and there's always tons leftover to make awesome ham (or turkey), stuffing and cranberry salsa sandwiches.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

In Sunny Florida

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! Kevin and I are currently in Florida, visiting my parents. We had turkey and ham (cause I don't like turkey), stuffing, gravy, maple carrots, mashed potatoes and cranberry salsa. The salsa that my mom makes is awesome. I'll be sure to post the recipe later. I'm so thankful that Kev and I were able to come down and spend this time with our family (especially after the whole JetBlue fiasco).

Speaking of traveling, I'm kind of excited because Kevin and I might go skiing for New Years! At first we didn't think we'd be able to do anything cause Kevin was going to have to work on New Years Day, but now he's been told that he won't have to. Yay! So now I have to muster up the courage to ask for the day off after I'll have been off the whole week previous. Hmmm.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

My Husband is Awesome!

I love watching TV.  I love different types of shows but especially those that I can lose myself in the story. It's the same way when I'm reading a good book.  The only thing is that Kev and I only own one TV - well two but the 2nd is only for the playstation and dvds. On Mondays and Tuesdays Kev and I found ourselves in a quandry.  We had three shows each night that we wanted to see and only able to record two. So one had to give.  I decided since I was the only one who really watched Dancing with the Stars - and it was available online - that we would drop it from our DVR series list. However because I watch so much other TV and Kevin and I usually have very similar tastes, I haven't been able to keep current with DWTS. As of this morning, I was only half way through Week 6 - Monday's episode.  This week was Week 10 - The Finals!

Every weekday morning the clock radio turns on at 6:00 AM. Kev and I don't have to be up till 6:30 so we spend the next half hour half listening to the radio and half sleeping. This morning at about 6:10, the dj started saying "last night on DWTS, the crystal ball was awarded to..." Kevin jumped out of bed, ran to the radio and turned it off! Isn't he awesome? Even though he doesn't watch it, he didn't want it to be ruined for me. How could I not love this guy?!?

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

What is up with me?

Today has just been a comedy of errors!  First, I forgot that I unscrewed the top of my water bottle off and ended up dumping a LOT of lemonade all over me the next time I went for a drink.  Then when I refilled the water, it took getting water all over the floor and my jeans for me to realize that I wasn't actually pouring the water into my water bottle.  And lastly while at lunch, upset that I didn't get a my taco with my chile relleno I practically chased down the poor waiter all over the restaurant.  I just couldn't sit at the table and wait.  Pfft!

Monday, November 24, 2008

How I Thought I Was Going to Turn Out, Pt. 2

This is a continuation of this post.

So fast forward 10 years. I was 17, in college and having fun. I had dated throughout high school, even had a couple of boyfriends, but never anything serious. By this time my plans were to get my degree, travel the world, come home to start my own business, buy a big house and start fostering and adopting kids. And then I met Kevin.
Kevin was unlike any other boy I met. He was quiet, intense and was just so interested in me. Kevin and I exchanged emails, letters and phone calls for two years before we were finally able to meet IRL. The summer between my sophomore and junior year Kevin and I planned an exchange trip where I would go to England for a month and Kevin would travel back with me to the US (for a month and a half). Kevin met me at the airport and the first time he smiled at me, I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with this man. Just like that. All my previous ideas and plans were out the window. I knew in that moment that Kevin and I were going to be together until forever. We had plenty of things in the way of our being together, even just the fact that I still had two more years of college to finish, but somehow we always found a way to make it work. We always trusted in each other and were always truthful.
And then I started dreaming a new dream. One where Kevin and I had a family together. Where he was the Dad and I was the Mom. Where I would have his children growing inside of me and we would be complete. Of course this meant that we would have to get married. But first one of us had to give up everything and move to a foreign country. After looking at things rationally, we decided that it made more sense for Kevin to move here. And so began our two year trek to get Kevin a visa to work here in the states. It could have been much easier if we had just gotten married first and then had him move over, but we both wanted to do this the right way. So Kevin finally got a job in the states, although not in Florida, where I lived. So I ended up leaving everything (family, friends and my own business) and starting over in a new place too.
A year later we were engaged and a year after that we were married. And then came time to start TTC. Oh boy. I knew right away that we were probably going to have some issues. I had never been regular in my life. And, unfortunately, I was right.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

What's Les Doing on the Big Screen?

So today Chicken and I went to go see this movie:
We were going to go last night, but it ended up taking Chicken 3 1/2 hours to get home from DC. She even ended up in Maryland! Oops!  Once she got turned around she was able to make it home without any other mishaps.  But we ended up being too tired after dinner to do much of anything so we just went back home.  So this morning after a bit of shopping at Kohl's (my favorite!) we went to go see it.  It's awesome! I've decided that Les is going to be Bolt for Halloween next year.  

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Saturday from TBWE

Finally this week is coming to a close! Today's activity was going to Dr. T to get my CD16 U/S and possible HCG shot. It wasn't Dr. T that did my ultrasound, but the other doctor. That was a bit surprising! Also sometimes I feel like the staff gets into such a routine that they automatically assume that you know what you're doing. Guess what? I don't! I'm not sure if I'm suppose to pee in a cup or not! But anyways, the other Dr didn't seem too impressed with what he saw on the U/S but said I should get the shot anyway. So now we wait for FF to tell me I've ovulated and we wait the 2WW.


Oooh, tonight at the usual time, I took my OPK and it was positive! I'm not sure if it's a side effect of the HCG because of the hormones injected into my body or if it was because the shot did something to me that caused my hormones to cause it to be positive. Yeah, I'm slightly confused too.

I've uploaded my pictures of the OPKs (including today's positive!); I think I'm going to keep taking them even though you're suppose to stop once you get a positive.

Totally unrelated: Kevin and I spent this afternoon raking up all the leaves in the front and back yards and we now have 42 bags of leaves sitting in front of our house! That's right, 42! Sheesh! Plus we still have 2/3 of the back yard to do! Sheesh!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Friday from TBWE

Tonight's activity is picking Chicken up from the airport. If you can't tell I'm kinda excited that she's coming into town even if it is only for a little while. It's a good thing that this week was TBWE as I probably would have felt like the week went soooooo slowly. Her flight is running around 16 minutes late so I'm just waiting in the chairs.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Thursday from TBWE

So tonight's activity was Les' agility class.  I was going to post a picture of her coming over the jump but then I forgot to take one!  Plus, next week we don't have class cause of Thanksgiving (and we're headed down to Florida to visit my parents).


The other activity tonight was preparing the house for Chicken's arrival.  Which is tomorrow!!! I'm so excited.  I haven't figured out exactly what we're going to do yet.  Anways, tonight we did a lot of cleaning—and by we, I mean Kevin—so we should be all set.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

POAS - Type 2

In the mail today was a inconspicous little package with my name on it.  I opened it up and found 20 little dip strips.  Yep, I got my LH/OPK testing strips today.  Of course I immediately peed in a cup and tried it out.  And of course I did it wrong, so I didn't have any results.  Once I got back from class I did it again and my test line was sooooooo light, it was really hard to catch it on camera.  But I did! Once I've got a few of them, I'll post the pictures here in a slideshow.

Wednesday from TBWE

Today's activity was my weekly Bible Study Class.  I've written a bunch of posts on this, but I've not published any of them! Oops!  I will soon. I'm still collecting all my thoughts. The class has been really interesting.  It's the first time I've done something like this.  Most of the women in the class are all older with kids and families and stuff, but I can keep my own. This past week we focused on Judith.  Which is who the book cover painting is about, so I figured that  would make a good pic to post.

There's only one more class which will be next next week.  They're already talking about doing another class after the holidays.  I think I'd be willing.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tuesday from TBWE

Today's activity was climbing. Kev regularly goes climbing (he's getting back into it now since he had to take a break due to the biking accident) and occasionaly I'll tag along. I agreed to go last week before I realized that this week was TBWE.

I kept waiting for that guy to get out of my shot, but of course he wouldn't so I had to take the picture anyways. It turns out he was "climbing down" as well. So he took forever to come down instead of just being lowered down by the belayer. Arg!

This photo is of the 50 foot wall at Pea.k Exper.iences. It was the first time I attempted it and I got all the way to the top. Also kind of hard to see is that the wall is actually slightly overhanging so it makes it even harder. I love slabs, why can't they all be slabs?


Monday, November 17, 2008

Monday from TBWE

So Monday's activity from "The Busiest Week Ever" was the second concert in our Masterworks Concert Series. It's technically the third concert in the series, but as we were in NYC for the real second one we'll call it the second. We're suppose to be getting new tickets since we had to miss that concert, but they haven't come in yet. I'll have to follow up on that tomorrow. So the seats we have are right on the bottom. Kevin and I were worried after the first concert but this time it was like I was the conductor!


This was the view from our seats! Tonight's concert is the Symphony of Psalms. The first two pieces were okay, but the last one, Schubert's Symphony No. 9 in C Major, "The Great," was sweet. The next concert isn't till January, however MIL wants to go to see the philharmonic for her 60th which is in December.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

How 'bout them 'Boys!?!


Got here about two hours early. Pigged out on lots of free (and good) food and the boys kicked back some major alcohol. We still have 31 minutes to kickoff. Taking tons of pictures which I'll post later.

The Busiest Week Ever

Okay, so maybe not the busiest, but darn near! Every evening this week, Kevin and I have somewhere to go. One of the most exciting things this week has to be what we're doing tonight. I'm mean what can top seats in the Owners' Club Box watching my Cowboys take down the Redskins! Yay me! Plus Romo is suppose to be back tonight. Right now I'm waiting for Kevin to get back from getting his ears lowered (cutting his hair) and then we're off to do the weekly shopping. And then an 3:15 we leave for the game! A full 5 hours before the game starts. Crazy! Anyways, I'll try to post a pic from my iPhone each night this week.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Almost Here!

My HCG shot has come in finally. I'm planning on going to pick it up today after work. I'm still taking Clomid, tomorrow's my last day. My temps did a weird thing this month. They didn't really come down till CD3, really down, the lowest since I started temping. Then were only down for 3 days. They shot back up once I started Clomid. Weird.



Here's what it looks like compared to last cycle.

This round I'll be using OPKs as well. Each cycle it seems to get a little more complicated, doesn't it?

Thursday, November 13, 2008

How Did You Do That?!?

So Kev went to see the dr. today to get the results from the CAT scan he had last week. The dr. told him he has a fractured sternum! Ow! The dr. has never seen it before so he told Kev he's just gonna have to wait to see if it gets better on its own. It's like a broken collarbone, there's nothing they can do about it, just hope it heals correctly.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

A Blindside From Within

So last night I watched the latest episode of Biggest Loser (yes, I know, I'm addicted to reality tv) and I was sooooooo excited about Amy C's vote for Brady. The people I always feel bad for on shows like this are the ones that think they're on the inside and then they are totally surprised when they find out that they're on the fringe of the group and are the first ones to go.

Like Paula on Road Rules/Real World Challenge: The Island (yes, a third reality tv show I watch). I mean, come on, you're in an alliance with 4 guys and you seriously think you're going to end up on "the" boat? Really? Wow! I like Paula, she's one of my favorite players, but I was always hoping she would wake up and realize she was on the fringe.

I think I pull for these players because I myself have been caught it this predicament. I've been on the inside, secure in my knowledge that everything was good with the people around me. And then one day I wake up and realize that I'm now on the outside looking in. This has happened with friendships, sports teams, and jobs. I hate being this person, yet over and over again, I find myself being this person. Maybe this is why I pull for these people. I want them to realize their status before they get blindsided so that maybe next time I will realize it before I get blindsided.

But this past week I got to see on two different shows what I always hoped I would. First was on Biggest Loser. Amy C had her spot on the blue team. She was good with her other 3 teammates and they were going to pick off the black team one by one. And then Ed came back. At that point the other 3 teammates starting talking about the final four, but now with Ed instead of Amy C. I felt bad for Amy C because she became this fringe person. She thought she was on the inside but clearly was the last one on the totem pole. So imagine my surprise and delight when she decided to vote for Brady. It was the blindside that rocked!

The second one this week was the latest episode of Survivor (okay, a fourth show!) when Susie voted for Marcus. Susie had to know that of the "Kota 6" she was going to be the first out. And when she approached Marcus, he tried to convince her that she would be in the final 3, but really? Here again was someone being convinced they were on the inside when they weren't. And somehow she was able to see the real situation and blindside Marcus. Yes!

Score two for the "fringers!!!"

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Amazing Race: Finally!

So I am a HUGE fan of the show Amazing Race. I have been since the 2nd one (I lived in England for the first one so I missed it). I fall in love with each series and usually form strong opinions about the people on it. This series though, there are two divorced women racing and while usually I pull for the all girl teams (Go Dustin & Candace!), this season I just can't stand these two. I watched the latest episode last night and I was soooooo happy when they were eliminated. Now I'm a Texan originally, so I wanted to like them, but I just found them to be catty, rude and annoying. Also they misinterpreted something about the clue in almost every episode so I was usually dumbfounded how they got through. I kept hoping that their mistake would cause them to be eliminated and usually they managed to fix it in time. But last night they made two mistakes in both the Roadblock and Detour and it finally caught up to them.


So far my favorites are Toni & Dallas.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

How I Thought I Was Going to Turn Out, Pt. 1

This story is kind of long and rambling, but I'm a firm believer that you need to have all the pieces in order to fully understand this story. I'll tie it up all nicely in the end, I think. I hope.

So you know how when you're a little girl, you would play with your dolls and play house? You grow up thinking about that man you're going to marry and the 2.5 kids you'll have with the dog and the white picket fence? Yeah, that was never me. Not that I didn't play with dolls and play house.

When I was 7 years old my Mom, Wiki and I were shopping at JC Penney when I noticed that there was a Cabbage Patch Kid sitting atop one of the rotary clothes racks. I pulled him down, looked around and couldn't see any other little girls looking for their dolls. I took the doll over to my Mom and showed it to her. Of course she thought that I had taken the doll from someone so I showed her where I got it from. She asked me if I had taken it out of the packaging and I said it was just sitting there. Wiki pointed out that the clothes/shoes/doll didn't look new. So we walked around and we stopped Moms with kids and asked if they had misplaced a doll. None had so after about an hour my Mom decided that we could keep it. At the time there was no way I would have ever gotten a CPK on my own. They were about $30-$50 dollars and my Mom was in no way going to spend that much on a doll. I remember thinking "How could anyone leave him sitting there? How could they forget they put him down? How could they walk away from him?" But then I knew he was mine. I no longer cared where he'd been, why he was left behind, or anything. He was mine.

Quick side bar here: My Dad was obsessed with computers and technology. He always wanted the latest thing. Sometime before the whole JC Penney scene, he convinced my Mom to buy a Coleco Adam. With it you got a $500 college savings fund (which was like the cost of the system) and a rebate for a free Cabbage Patch Kid. We mailed off for it and she arrived. She was really pretty, but remained in a plastic bag on top of my parent's hutch in their bedroom. Like I said before, there was no way my mom was going to pay for an actual CPK and since we only got one and there were two of us, it was decided that the doll would be kept as a collector's item. Neither one of us got her.

So back to the day of the JC Penney trip. We got home that evening and there was a decision to be made. As I was the youngest and very much a spoiled brat, Wiki let me decide which CPK I wanted. I knew right away, I wanted him. I named him Marc Allen, made him an adoption certificate like the one that came with Wiki's. I loved him. He looked nothing like me—pale, blonde and blue eyed—but I loved him. I played with him all the time, even when playing with my other toys. During the day he lived on my bed instead of in the toy box. Then about a year later my Mom and Wiki came home with two new CPKs (the ones that could hold pencils and wore glasses). Marc Allen and I welcomed Miguel Andres (whose original name was Headley Roy—yuck! Quickly renamed!) to the family. Miguel Andres was older, looked more like me with his darker hair and made our play family whole. I loved that my CPKs came to me, I didn't choose them. I loved that we made a family and that they were "adopted."

I think that's when I started thing about adopting. I started thinking about what would happen when I grew up. I always wanted a big house, but not because it was big, but because I could adopt lots of kids then. I pictured myself opening up my house to all these kids. But no where did getting married and having kids of my own factor into it. I always pictured it just being me. And the adopted kids.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

I Forgot to Mention

That Chicken is coming to visit. She mentioned while in NYC that she might be coming to DC in November for work. Well she is! I'm so excited! She's coming the weekend before Thanksgiving. She gets here on Friday and is staying till Sunday. She's going up to DC during the day on Saturday, but as I have my CD16 u/s that day it will all work out. Yay!

Friday, November 7, 2008

Third Time's the Charm

To match all the excitement at the beginning of this week, today turned out to be the start of the 3rd round. Each round, I do a little better so hopefully this will be when it finally happens! I feel extra lucky because if it does work then that means that the kiddos will be due around Wiki and my Mom's birthday. Yay, another Leo in the family! We've got 3 already!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

The $210 Trip and Fall

I was walking back to the chair when I tripped over my own feet and ended up on the ground. As I was falling I tried to use the chair to catch myself. However the chair has these neat sliders that help keep your hardwood floors nice. So they slide. Away from you. Especially when you're trying to catch yourself while falling. And while their sliding, anything on the arms of the chairs tend to fall off. Especially if it's your iBook. CRASH! Oh and the whole time, Kevin is just watching me fall.

When I got back up, I found that the computer was okay but the power lead was broken. Of course it's broken! This is the 3rd power lead I've had in three years! I got my iBook in 2004 with the first power lead. Then in late 2005, my adorable pup Les chewed through it. So Kev replaced it. Then in 2007, I noticed more teethmarks in my power lead and so I taped it up. That lasted until early this year. I replaced it this summer because it was no longer powering my laptop. Oh did I mention that if unplugged my laptop doesn't stay on? Bad battery, doesn't hold a charge. Since 2006.

So I bought #4 today. I visited the Apple store on my way to Les' agility class. I got a new power lead ($80). Plus I went ahead and bit the bullet and bought a new battery ($130).

Plus I stubbed my toe on the coffee table.

See I don't need kiddos, I cost myself enough grief and money.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

The Proof is in the...

Ultrasound. But I'll get to that later.

Today I had my first appt with the RE (Dr. T). It went well and I'm excited to have a clearer idea of what can happen and what all the options are. A few things stuck out to me as unusual. The first thing, the entire time I was talking to Dr. T, it seemed like he was giving me choices rather than saying "okay, here's the plan of action." He was more like "you could do this" or "others have done this." I'm think the whole time "you're the doctor, tell me what to do!" It was kind of annoying.

Anyways, he "suggested" that I keep going with 100 mg of Clomid but add in an U/S and HCG shot on CD16. I suggested that I move up to 150 mg of Clomid because my b/w last week showed that I didn't O with 100mg. Then I mentioned that FF showed that I O'd on CD27 and showed him my chart. He looked at it but thought it wasn't correct.

Interesting note, Dr. T said that if I did Clomid and I didn't have any follicles on CD16, I could start Clomid again right away. Then he said I could do a U/S right then and if everything looked good I could start Clomid in a couple of days. So I agreed and we did it. Shocker: I DID OVULATE on CD27! He found a cyst (remnant of the follicle) that proves I ovulated about 4 days ago.



Yay! I truly do work! However this means that Dr. T wants me to stay on 100mg for the next cycle.

So all in all an interesting appt.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Another Twist from FF

I woke up this morning and took my BBT like normal. However the results weren't normal! FF is telling me that I ovulated on Friday (CD27). I don't know if this is because of the fact that I slept in on Saturday, had the time change on Sunday and just an abnormal temp this morning? This is really unexpected and really late, but even if Kev and I missed this round (which we most likely did) I am excited. I work! Yay!

Friday, October 31, 2008

Happy Halloween!


Happy Halloween! Halloween is probably one of my favorite holidays - a sentiment shared by my BFF, Chicken. Once I decided to stop Trick or Treating (the last time was when I was a Senior in college), Wiki and I would do elaborate set ups at my parents house complete with scarecrows, fog machines and scary sounds/music. It was great fun. I was looking forward to continuing the tradition once I got to my own house.

However while the neighborhood we live in can get quite festive (you should see #36's house), we don't seem to get that many trick or treaters. The first year I think we had four or five groups of 2-3 kids each. Last year we had more, but still nothing like at my parent's house. This year we only had about 25-30 kids come. Kev and I always do a tally of the costumes and although Darth Vader has always been a strong contender, this year we had only one. We did have 3 Boba Fetts though. I think the winner this year was the 6 witches we had.

All in all, a good night plus a lot of yummy candy left over!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Repeat Performance

So I finally got the test results this morning and it seems that 100mg of Clomid didn't work either. I thought this scenario would mean that I would be going up to 150mg of Clomid for the next cycle, but then Dr. P went ahead and referred me to a Reproductive Endocrinologist. It was kind of a surprise when she suggested it because I thought we would go 6 rounds of Clomid before they would send me to an RE. I'm kind of glad that things are moving along quickly, but at the same time, I didn't think it would be that hard to have an kiddo.

Monday, October 27, 2008

A nice needlestick

Today I had to get my bloodwork done for this round of Clomid. I'm totally expecting a bad number because according to FF I haven't ovulated yet and physically I've not felt anything that tells me that I have (although as I write this, I can suddenly feel the twinges and cramps). The lady that took my blood did an awesome job though, for sure the best ever! See I've had to give a lot of blood for tests and labs in the past. My eighth grade year when I couldn't shake a cold, I think I was getting blood drawn once every other week. So anyways, I always bleed a lot afterward and usually I have to put on a second band-aid. Also last time I went, I ended up having a big skin irritation where the tape was put on my arm. So this time I told the nice lady about it so she would use a band-aid instead. The awesome part was that I was able to take the band-aid off after a couple of hours, it looked hardly used and I didn't have a big bruise where they stabbed me. If I've got to have bloodwork done next time, I'm going back to her!

Just so you know

I do write a post almost everyday, I'm just really bad about publishing them. I've got like 10-12 posts in draft mode. I'll finish them up soon and get them out, especially this past week, cause lots of exciting stuff has happened.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Arg that FF!

So the girls on a Clomid Board I visit have gone on and on about FertilityFriend.com, but I'm not such a fan. First it said that I O'ed on CD12, then it took it away, then it gave it back. Then it decided that I O'ed on CD 19 and now it's taken it away again. WTF?!?

But anyways, today is CD21 and of course it fell on a Saturday (for real this time!), so I'm going in Monday morning for b/w. Hope the people at work aren't getting upset about all this time I'm taking off. Oh well.

Friday, October 24, 2008

The Deladubrees Visit

One of Kev's friends that he's known since about the age of 11 and his wife came to visit us yesterday. They decided to come to the US for vacation. They visited Boston, Martha's Vineyard, New York City, Philadephia and Washington, DC over the course of two weeks. They came down Wednesday night and stayed till this morning.

We took them shopping (to Kohl's and Target) first and then after a slight detour to take care of the dogs, ate lunch at Cheeburger Cheeburger. We went to visit the state capital next and walk along the river. Then a nice drive down Riverside Drive with a stop at Pony Pasture. Another shopping trip to Stony Pointe and we finished off the day with dinner at a really nice Italian Restaurant.

I'm really glad they got to visit and that we got to spend time with them. While I've known them for about 8-9 years, because they've never lived near Kev since I've known them, we've only usually hung out while they were in town for a Christmas or New Year's. We're going back to Kev's parent's for Christmas this year so hopefully we'll see them then.

Monday, October 20, 2008

There's nothing like a little last minute painting...

When we moved into our house back in 2006, we discovered in the master bedroom that the previous owner had removed the wall sconces from the wall. Not really a big deal since we weren't going to put the bed where she had it and so there being sconces randomly on a wall would have looked weird. A big deal was that fact that when they painted the room they didn't bother to take the wall sconces down and so I had two perfect squares of white in an other wise bluish-grey room. It looked odd. And there were four big holes in each square where they took the screws and the drywall anchors out and didn't bother to patch it back up. I mean, who does that?!? Leave the anchors in cause you're just going to cause a huge whole in my wall! Tonight, I decided that I had enough. Friends of Kevin's from the UK are coming on Wednesday and I can't deal with one more person walking into my house and seeing those ugly white squares with their huge holes in them. I know, I know, it's just two people and I should have been way more concerned when I had a bus load of people in my house during the wedding, but for some reason it bugged me for this visit.  So this past weekend while Kevin was away caving I went to Lowe's.

Now Kevin and I had already agreed to paint the bedroom.  In fact, we agreed to paint the room a while ago.  Back in March when we got our new bedroom furniture. However through procrastination (which both of us are notorious for) we ended up not getting the bedroom painted before the furniture got delivered in May, or over the summer, or during our various long weekends.  So here it is October and nothing has changed.  The closest we got was going to Lowe's and picking up several samples of blue.  Now I like blue, but I don't like baby blues or soft blues.  I want the color to be rich and vibrant.  Kevin however doesn't like dark blues because he thinks it makes the room look darker and darker = bad in Kevin's book. So I knew after painting the samples that it wasn't going to blue.  Well, I decided on yellow.  Not bright yellow! More like a camel - buttercream yellow.  It's very nice and I've decided to do a feature wall behind the headboard.  Tonight when I got home, instead of helping Kevin get the house ready by cleaning, I locked myself in our bedroom and cleaned, patched up and painted the "sconce" wall.  And then I couldn't just leave the "samples" wall with patches of blue so I painted that wall as well. It was already getting pretty late when I finished with those two walls so I decided it would do.  I know I'm not going to be able to paint tomorrow night because Kevin would kill me if I don't help with any of the cleaning.  Hopefully this weekend (once our guests leave) I'll be able to finish up.

How Mayo became Mayo

As you can tell, I like calling people I know by nicknames. Sometimes they're cute, sometimes they're funny, other times you just gotta roll your eyes. And here's the thing, I don't even give these people their nicknames. I'm such a follower, cause while I'm usually there when they get their nicknames, it takes me weeks (only once it's caught on) to start using them.

Like my cousin Mayo. So I've got two cousins close to me in age. One (Mayo) was born before me in September; one was born after me, in July. Somehow we were all in the same grade when we went into first grade, and because we lived next door to each other, we went to the same school. Anyways, Mayo's real name rhymes with mayonesa, so she quickly became "Mayonesa." And then cause I have a "K" name, I became Ketchup (though no one calls me that anymore). Mayonesa eventually became Mayo and it stuck.

On a side note, that younger cousin ended up picking up Mustard for a short while, although I'm not sure why cause his name in no way sounds like mustard. But whatever, maybe it was cause the three of us were always together.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Tag I'm it!

I've been "tagged" by Trolley. She sent it to me by email, so I'm pretty sure she doesn't know I have a blog (not many people do). But anyways, here I go.

10 Random Facts That You May or May Not Have Known About Me

1. Kevin and I have known each other since we were 18(him)/17(me). We met our first year of university and became interested in each other shortly after.

2. I met my husband on the internet before there was match.com, chemistry.com, eharmony.com, etc. We traded emails, letters and phone calls for a year and a half before finally meeting each other face to face.

3. I was a Hillary Clinton supporter. Still am really...Go Hillary 2012!

4. I don't believe in the death penalty.

5. Kev and I share our last name with a major hotel chain. If I'm traveling I always find these hotels and steal their pens, stationary, napkins, etc. Anything with my last name on it. I figure it's owed to me for being asked every single time I say/spell my last name "Ooh, as in the hotel?" Yes, people, as in the hotel.

6. I believe the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference.

7. I wanted to get married on 7/7/7 because 7 is my lucky number. I swear! That number always comes up in my life. Then I wanted to get married on 7/14/7 because it would be exactly 10 years and 10 days since Kev and I first laid eyes on each other. We ended up getting married on 9/22/07 because of circumstances out of our control and it was the most beautiful day ever!

8. I love playing school sports. As an adult, I've belonged to a softball team, kickball team, dodgeball team, and soccer team. I might go for volleyball next.

9. I LOVE coaching youth soccer.

10. I think I'm one of the reasons that my SIL and my husband don't talk anymore and it makes me really, really sad.

Okay that's it! Most of the blogs I read have done this already, but I might "tag" you if I find one I like to read that hasn't.

Tomorrow is our NYC trip! I'm so excited. I'll try to take lots of pics to post!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Round 2: KO? KU?

So last night I took my first pill of Clomid. This is the second round (amped up to 100mg) and hopefully it will work. Lots of thoughts going through my head. I went and got myself a basal thermometer. I'm going to start charting this month. There's a website—www.fertilityfriend.com—that is suppose to make it easy for you and help you predict when you're going to ovulate. Well not predict as much as tells you it's happened three days after the fact (when you can do nothing about it). Hopefully lots of baby dust going around here.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Experiment Over

I've decided to end the experiment. It last about two weeks and could have lasted longer but Kev decided that I wasn't really cleaning the mess, I was just spreading it out. So here's the last shot from a couple of days ago. Maybe I'll try the actual kitchen sink next.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Crap I Missed a Day

So last night I was up late watching the vice presidential debate. We had to DVR it because of Les' Agility Class. So anyways, I finally got bored and decided to go to bed. A little later Kev came up. This morning when I went downstairs, I looked at the coffee table and it suddenly dawned on me that I didn't clear it off last night! Crap! It had already started collecting the days items on it so I was really annoyed that 1. I forgot and 2. I didn't have a picture of it. Kevin then told me that he had taken the liberty of taking a picture before he went to bed— after he cleaned off his stuff, of course.

So unfortunately, here it is:



Not as bad as that before picture I have to admit, but I'm kind of annoyed with myself.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Came in...

The results are in and it seems it didn't work this cycle. So for the next cycle, I'll get bumped up to 100mg. Hopefully next round will work.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Test Results

Yesterday I went in to get my b/w done for this round of clomid. I'm waiting by the phone, hoping they'll call soon. They said that the results are coming in today, possibly tomorrow morning. So here's to it being today.

On a side note: The tape from the bandage to cover the inside of my elbow has left a HUGE red mark on my skin. And it itches a lot! I've never had a reaction like this before.

Still waiting...

Monday, September 29, 2008

That Kitchen Sink Thing

I've heard of that flylady thing. I've read the book, the blog, and the website. I can do the 27 things in a bag to get rid of without looking back. She talks about the kitchen sink and how one day she decides that she's going to make sure that every night the kitchen sink is cleared. And when she had a handle on that she moved onto the "kitchen sink" for each room. It seems simple enough so I'm going to try. Now seeing as how I HATE doing the dishes I decided to start with the "kitchen sink" in the living room. That's right, the coffee table. So last night, I'll took a before and after picture and then each day I'll take another picture to show you all my progress.

Before:


After:

*Yes, that discoloration was caused by me. I was painting my nails when I tipped over the bottle of nail polish remover and then tried to mop up the spill with a napkin. As you can see, not a good idea. Oops!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

How The Heck...

are you 15 already? Wow! Happy Birthday Melegito! You're definitely one of the most amusing cousins I have :).

Saturday, September 27, 2008

For the Dogs!

Today Kevin and I ventured out to a Bark Farm so that we could help out by walking the dogs. Apparently people come out to help clean, feed and water the dogs, but they forget about exercising the dogs. Kevin and I spent two hours walking various dogs. We would have stayed longer but as Kevin was putting one dog away who didn't want to get put away, the dog managed to put the gate between him and Kevin. Kevin's solution was to pull the dog back extra hard. The dog came flying back as well as the gate. It (the gate not the dog) ended up hitting Kevin in the face, knocking the lens of his glasses free. But just the left one and yes he was wearing the new ones. We spent the next 45 minutes sifting through poo and peed wood shavings looking for the lens but it had disappeared into the ether. We went to the vision place to get it fixed, but it was closed so we had lunch instead and Kevin is headed back sometime during the week.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Lone Charger

I have a iPhone and Kevin has my old iPod. We have one lone charger that came with my iPhone. So last night when I got back from agility class, my phone was dead. I went to charge it and found Kevin's iPod plugged in. So I asked him if I could charge my phone and I got an unqualified NO. So I waited till right before we went to bed. He checked the iPod and then said "It's not finished yet," and put it back down and walked away. So needless to say I had to wait till I got to work to charge up my phone. My point? iPhone vs. iPod. Cell phone vs. MP3 player. The choice should have been obvious. Come on Kev!

Total Brain Fart!

I was being so exact this month with when I should take provera, clomid, etc. My only concern was that CD21 fell on a Saturday and so which day should I go in to do my b/w. Well it turns out that CD21 is actually Friday! Which I didn't realize till tonight. It's too late too call and reschedule my b/w and so now I have to wait till Monday, which will be CD24. I'm not sure why I kept thinking that CD21 was on Saturday. Arg!

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Happy Birthday Chicken!

So today is Chicken’s Birthday. They went for a picnic in a Bok Tower (kid friendly) and then out to a bar (not kid friendly) to celebrate. And I’m not there :( This feels like the first time since 1996 that I’ve not been around for her birthday (yes I know it's not!) and I’m really sad. However, we’re planning a trip to NYC for Pita’s 30th b-day so Chicken, I’ll make it up then! Also, I did buy you a card and a gift, but of course I didn’t mail it on time (or at all actually as of right now). I intended to, but you know how that goes. Anyways, I’ll bring it with me to NYC. Hope you had fun and again, stay away from those vodka-cranberry thingys (more a note to self than to her)!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Mayo-nesa!

Can you believe we're almost 31?!? Wait, as of today, you're 31 already. Oh, yeah! Okay, can you believe I'm almost 31? *wink* *wink*

Anyways, Happy Birthday Mayo!

Monday, September 8, 2008

My "niece"

Happy Birthday to my adorable 2-year-old niece! Mayo, you have beautiful children!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

BFN

Today I earned another BFN pee stick. Now I get to start taking Provera. All this waiting is annoying, but when those kiddos arrive, I'm sure I'll be remembering when it was just me and Kev and the dogs.

Friday, August 15, 2008

And the expenses start now...

So everyone knows what prenatal vitamins are. Everyone knows you're suppose to take them. And everyone knows that they can be a tad expensive.

What they don't tell you is that not only are you expected to take them you're whole pregnancy, but you're expected to take them while you're trying to get pregnant. Even better is to take them about a month before you're going to try to get pregnant. Now this can only be a month or two for the 80% of couples who get pregnant within the first month of trying, but for some of us, it takes slightly longer. And they don't tell you that the pills are huge! And they don't tell you that each pill is about $1. So for a normal pregnancy that's about $300 just for vitamins! Yikes! This Clomid stuff better work!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Les is 3!

It's hard to believe for me, because I'm use to her being the puppy. I stopped by 3 Dog Bakery to get her a cake to share with Dave. I also picked up a slice of chocolate cake for Kevin, cause he wouldn't be happy if the dogs had cake and he didn't. I'll post pictures soon.

***Updated: Pictures Added***

Les' cake from 3 D.og Bak.ery

Les blowing out the candles! (Not really! Kevin did it.)

Les enjoying the first bite.

Les licking the candles clean, a Mo tradition.

Les' bowl moved all over the house as she finished of her slice of cake.