Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Baby Shower.

I just took my last Femara pill. I forgot to take it during dinner (I pop all three pills at once) so I had to have strawberries and cream so that I would have food in my stomach. :P
Kevin is doing his SA tomorrow. The RE isn't that worried about it cause he said the PCT was really good.
Chicken has set a date for her baby shower. It's Mother's Day - like actually on Sunday. When she called to tell me I was kind of caught off guard. First, I thought it was going to be in June and second cause I thought it was going to be on a Saturday. Since I was going to be traveling (cause I think I'm the only out-of-towner) Saturday was going to be easier.
Anyways, when she called, I was like "Ooh, I don't know, I'll have to check." But now I'm freaking out that she might think I'm not looking forward to it because of IF and not that I was concerned about the travel aspect. They're doing it on Sunday because Chicklet's dad's family will all be around for someone's graduation on Saturday so Mother's Day is the most convienent day for them to do it and get the greatest response. I looked online and found flights for $57 each way! Yes! So I got them and now we're good to go.
Back when we first talked about the baby shower, Chicken was tossing around April and June - I voted for June because at the time we were going away sometime in April and also because June gave me more time to get pregnant. Not that I wanted to steal Chicken's thunder, I just thought it would have been neat. Now that it's May - it's only one month earlier - but I feel so much more pressure to be pregnant by then. I'm not sure why, it's not like anyone at her shower would pressure me. All of our mutual friends are still single so they're not thinking about having kids and it's easy to deflect inquiries when it's coming from a total stranger. But still this means I have maybe two cycles left before the shower. Like somehow if I'm not pregnant by this shower or by the time Chicklet is born, I won't be able to be a great friend. Almost like I can forgive her for having an unexpected accidental baby, but only if I (who will have been trying earnestly for 9 months by then) get mine at the same time. How wrong is that? I know I shouldn't feel this way and I don't really, not now anyway. But I think I might if things work out that way. I really don't want to become that person.

5 comments:

Hillary said...

I hope you are pregnant by then, too!

Amanda said...

Dude, I might be that person. I feel that way with my SIL... like I have to get pregnant before she gives birth or something. Actually, that's how I felt a while ago, but I've let up on myself a little and tried to take some of that pressure off, because it does seem really unhealthy.

We just want healthy, happy babies, and it will just take us a little longer.

Becky said...

Wow that's some pretty cheap air fare, good for you!

The Wife said...

I know! I LOVE Southwest!

Beth said...

While I hope that you are pregnant by then, I know that you & Chicken are forever friends! For sure, friendships ebb & flow through the stages of motherhood, but I've always maintained friendships with my 3 BFFs. One of whom has 3 kids (oldest is 1 year older than Ben), one of whom has 1 child who just turned 3 & one of whom just got married & is struggling with infertility. I know you irl, KMo & I know you will love the Chicklet almost as much as she does, even if you are you have to love her through your own heartache.