Monday, June 1, 2009


Most times I know I'm not normal. But I'm wondering if I really am when it comes to the 2ww. I'm currently 9DPIUI. And 9DPO. I'm not really sure which one I should be following, but for the sake of this post I'm going to go with DPO since that's what I have the most experience with.
Right after ovulation I'm usually in full panic mode. The stress of temping for three days, praying that my temps will go up. Trying to control my sleep conditions so that my temps are more accurate. Wondering if we timed it right. Then the panic on the third day when my temps go down (usually happens, but didn't this cycle). All sorts of fears live in my brain, usually along the I-didn't-actually-ovulate thread.
Once I've confirmed that ovulation has in fact occurred I'm at my happiest. I feel like this is it. This is the cycle that is going to go right. I produced an egg, I ovulated. Yes, I did it with drugs, but maybe someday I'll be able to do it without. We did the deed when we were suppose to. This time it worked! This euphoric feeling usually lasts about 3-4 days.
And then 8DPO rolls around and I start to get nervous. 9DPO is my average LP. I start looking for signs. In everything I do. Brushing my teeth, standing up quickly, random twinges, everything odd is a sign that this cycle didn't work yet again.
But I'm here again. And tomorrow is 10DPO. If I can make it to Friday it will be a record. Heck, if I make it to Saturday, I don't know what I'm going to do. Added to that I'm traveling down to Florida again this weekend. Which adds to the whole "test/don't test" dilemma added in with a "when to test?" Yeah, I don't like the end of the 2ww. Am I alone here?


AKatC518 said...

nope, def not alone. I'm on this boat with ya and dammit why didn't one of us bring a freakin paddle?!? I only endured the 2ww last cycle because it was the first time since TTC that I actually ovulated. Girl, I was so ecstatic with a positive opk that I took it's photograph! Now I'm back to opk testing cuz last 2ww was a bust. Good Luck!!

Anonymous said...

I don't know how I came across your blog, but I'm glad I did! I'm currently 9DPO as well, enduring 2WW! My luteal phase is longer, around 16 days. I broke down and started tested today- negative. All the optimism I had about my "sympotms" is crumbling and it's all starting to seem like mind over matter now.
Keeping my fingers crossed for you! I'll be checking in soon looking for a BFP post!!!!!

Anonymous said...

How exciting! I feel your pain, too, because when we were TTC frequently my LP was 7-10 days. Nowadays it is 7-15 days. Weird. Anyhow, when you have a short LP you do tense up around a week after O and if you don't have any spotting by 10 dpo it's time to test! :) Good luck, hope it's great news!